My son finds sitting for me hard
and being in my painting room
frustrating
He says, ‘What is the point of all this?
All these pictures, if they’re just going to sit here?’
I try to reassure him
Its ok, I enjoy it
The point is to try to see better
They might go somewhere
He wants a fiver for sitting for me
For him now
things are about movement
I am searching for something else
Understanding desire, success, failure
A sense of immersion
Persistence
My son leaves and we accept
the unknown fate of the pictures
NIKKI FOSTER 